こちら文章同じです。よろしくお願いいたします。
https://amzn.asia/d/4mNsIsr
わたしは、かけだしの張り子作家です。
高校時代、郡山市西田町の張り子作家に出会い、５０年もたってようやく、活動を始めることができました。これは、そんなわたしの、怪奇と不思議の実体験です。
むかしはお年寄りから聞かされたものですが、最近はマンガやゲームによって、怖いもの、不思議なものに出会います。実は、地域や家庭によって、その内容も対処法も違ってくるようです。みなさんのご家庭で、また学校・職場で、怖いもの、不思議なものについて話し合い、絶たれてしまった貴重な教えが、すこしでも地域によみがえれば、なによりの幸いに存じます。
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怪異とは Strange experiences
わたしには、発端から証明まで十数年かかった、不思議で怖い経験があります。その写真は、わたしが４０代のはじめころ、撮影されました。わたしの頭部があるべき箇所に、都内の夜景。いわゆる心霊写真です。デジカメでしたので、その場で確認し、みんなで驚きました。
「霊が通りかかっと、こうなるっつうよね」とりつくろって動揺をかくしたものの、取り置くことなく消去。この手の写真は、『病気やけがに気をつけて』という、ご先祖からの警告であるといいます。不思議が見える友人からも、「頭の病気に気をつけて」と、そのころ、警告されていました。
これが、専門医によって発見された『脳動脈瘤』です。心霊写真撮影から、十数年後のことでした。
これには、実は続きがあります。
ある心霊治療家に、
「５～６個でき始めているよ」
と教えてもらいました。翌年の検査で、脳動脈瘤の形状がぼこぼこに変化し、６個、専門医により確認されています。
心霊写真、不思議が見える友人・心霊治療家。医学的な証明を受けた、たいへん貴重な実体験でした。
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笑う山 The mountain laughed
H市からN方面に向かうと、Mという町があります。インターネットでH神社を調べていたところ、N神社を発見。これはぜひお参りしたい。町は、K神社のお祭りでした。こちらにもご縁があるわたし。目をあげると、斜面に、お稲荷様のお堂。
『おまえ、N神社に行くんだろ？ おれが、つれてってやる。
こっちだ、こっちだ！』
こどものような印象でも、その正体は不明。目に見えたのではなく、心象として浮かんだものです。
（案内って・・・地図見だって、
N神社はもっと左方面でねぇが）
お堂から右方面に斜面をかける元気なガイド。
（あらなんだべ・・・した、迷い込むほどの山奥でねぇし、ちがったら戻れっぺぇ。んじゃ行ってみっかぁ）
細い道は、地元の人しか知らない、土の急斜面。
（・・・これ、公道ではねぇがもな）
ふりかえると、きつい斜面を、
もうけっこう登ってきていました。
（はぁ・・・降りんの、しんでぇな）
目を上げると、そこに神社が。よく見ると、あらま、探していた、N神社ではありませんか。得意げなガイドにお礼を言って、さっそく、お参りします。
「舞いを奉じに伺いました」
そう申し上げると、N神社におられる、ある存在が、『ここではない』 と、おっしゃいます。ここでもやはり、現実のものではなく、やり取りはすべて心象です。 『あちらで』
示された方向に、T城跡。
（・・・っつぅど、この山を降りで、
あっちの山さ登れど・・・うわぁ）
背中の荷物が、ぐっと重さを増します。
『つれてってやる』
さきほどのガイドが、うれしそう。
「道はわがっから、でぇじょうぶ。
でも、ありがとなぃ」
公道をぐるっとまわって町におり、T城跡に山登り。実はこちら、個人の所有地なのだそう。
ふうふう言いながらお城跡に立ち、ビデオカメラを設置して、だれも来ないよう願いながら、向こうの山に、オリジナルの謡い舞いを奉じます。
（うちら、もう、ともだちだっぱい！
はぁ、ともだちだっぺね！）
奉納後、山々から大爆笑の心象が。
（なんだべ。そだにおもせがなぁ？）
山に人格を認め、あたりまえのように友情を結ぼうとする人間が、今の世の中に生き残っている。古代から、人と社会の移り変わりを見守る彼らには、きっと、腹をかかえるほど
愉快で、おもしろかったことでしょう。
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正夢 Until the dream
comes true
『あんたは 食堂をやれ』
なつかしい父が、古びた無人のドライブインで言いました。父が亡くなって、10年ほどあとのことです。当時、飲食の仕事にかかわる予定はなく、じきに忘れてしまいます。
それから５～６年。自宅療養後の夫には、再就職が困難でした。（夫婦で働げだらなぁ）そう思いながらインターネットを見ていると、「夫婦住込み管理人募集」を発見。職務内容は、入退寮の管理と郵便・宅配の受け取り・朝夕の食事提供。
自宅療養中、夫は夕食を毎日準備していました。夫の亡き父は調理師でしたし、苦手意識はない様子。
「これ、いいじゃない？」
どきどきしながら、こう、話してみました。
「おれに やれるかなあ」
住込みや大量調理の経験がないことから、不安そう。でも、管理や事務、経理方面が専門の夫です。
「いけるいける！ んじゃ、
すぐに申し込んでみっぺ！」
そこから怒涛の『ヨメの押せ押せ夫婦面接＆ギリギリ厳しい実務試験』 をどうにか潜り抜け、めでたく採用となりました。
『おれが手伝うから』 と亡き父は、夢でわたしにそう言いました。再婚前で、当時まだ出会ってさえなかった夫は、得意分野も人柄も亡き父と似ており、本当に父が手伝ってくれているような、不思議な気持ちになります。
今では、調理師免許も一緒に取得し、おかげさまで充実しています。
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塩と酒・塩水と榊
Salt and Sake,
Salt Water and Sakaki
父が亡くなり、８１歳の母は、長男の住む東京に引き取られていきました。その後施設に入ったと、知人から聞かされます。要支援だったのに。
「入所っちゃなんだ！
介護度上がったのが！
母ちゃん、そだに悪ぐながったべ！」
激怒の挙句、手あたり次第探しまくったわたし。ついに、茨城県のとあるグループホームで、すっかりやせてしまった母と再会します。
ようやく引き取ったのですが、どうしたことでしょう。妄想やら幻聴やら、上京前には見られなかった、たいへんな症状です。
「（午前２時、60キロ離れた町から80歳の）妹が（ひとりで）訪れ『扉を開けて。家にいれて』と繰り返すの。（母が）玄関に出るのが遅かったから、妹は裏の家に泊めてもらって、（母に）会わずに帰ってしまったの」
と、わたしにそう訴えます。
日中は介護の専門職、夜は運転代行で働くわたしは、母が玄関扉を開ける音で飛び起き、二階寝室から駆けつけるのです。
「もう！ わだしを寝がせで！」
あまりにもこれが続いて限界を迎え、
（あーハイハイ。はぁこれ霊現象なぃ）
と、わたしはヤケになりました。
「祓いたまえ清めたまえ」と唱えながら、家の中を塩水と榊で祓い清め、敷地にお酒と塩を撒いてみます。
すると、じきに母の症状が収まったではありませんか。
階段を祓い清めた際、『ありがとう』 と、女の子の声がわたしの心に届いたのも、不思議なことでした。
このあと３か所、母と移り住み、その都度あらかじめ敷地に結界を張り、不思議な効果を実感したものです。
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城下の桜
Cherry blossoms under the castle
８３歳の夏、母は、とつぜん半身まひになりました。朝、母を寝室に起こしに行くと、言葉が不明瞭で、体が不自由なのです。意識ははっきりしていて、会話もできました。その日はお盆で、病院は休みです。
「墓参り、またこんどにしっぱい」
母は、ろれつのまわらない口で、
「いふ」 と言います。
（高齢だがんで、次はねぇがもなぁ。
実家さも、本家さも寄って、
みんなに会いでべぇ）
わたしは母を連れ、１００キロ日帰りの旅へ。車の乗り降りはもちろん、おトイレも全介助。寄りかかっても５分と座っていることができない病状に、親戚中が驚きをかくせません。
家に帰ると、「おほいえいいひあい」と言います。母と二人暮らし。わたしには、昼夜の仕事があります。
「おむつに、していいがんない」
・・・残酷なことを、求める娘。
「おほいえにいひあい」
父の時に買った車いす。頑固に言い張る母。静かに、使い方を教えます。
「でぎっかぃ？」
「いうんえ、えきう」
倒れた初日からひとりでおトイレに通い、医療のリハビリを受けないまま、母は、１か月で杖歩行まで回復し、主治医や、関係介護職員全員を、すっかり驚愕させたのです。
晩年、左右の両手を支えられ、自分の足で鶴ヶ城に登城します。瓦の張替え工事、足場の中の天守閣。
「景色がいいねぇ」
弱視で白内障だった母。
心眼で、城下の桜を楽しんでいたのかもしれません。
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「また、あなたがいい」
A message from my late
mother
９０歳。入院して、１週間後のことでした。母は一度意識が戻り、病院にいることを聞かされて驚きます。
「ひおほ、ひおほ！」
母はこう言ってわたしを励し、これが、最期のことばとなりました。
ついに、その日はきてしまいます。
「・・・最高の 母ちゃんだっばい」
動かなかった心電図が、ぴょん！ といちどだけ、跳ね上がります。
（あぁ、やっぱり 聞こえでんのがな）
それならと、
「今度 生まっちくっとぎも、
まだ 親子で くっぺね」
心電図はもう、反応しません。
告別式がすんで仕事にもどると、
「また、あなたがいい！ わかる？
こんども、また、あなたがいいの！」
こう言いつづけたのは、その日担当した通院介助の利用者様でした。受診待ちのあいだ、また会計待ちの時間も、ずっと繰り返しておっしゃるのです。気づけば、もう３０分。
（イヤコレ、
母ちゃんが言わせでっぺぇ。
ほだ。
母ちゃんなら、やりかねねわぁ）
わたしの頬が、ゆるみます。
（ほがぁ・・・返事してくっちゃんだぁ。
まだ親子で生まっちくっぺぇ・・・
んでも、つぎはもっと、
ふつうの親子がいべなぁ）
５０代で、若年性アルツハイマー型認知症を患った母。当時はまだ、この病気が知られていなかったころ。症状に振り回され、大好きなのに大嫌い、そんな反面感情をかかえた娘です。薬のこと、病気のこと、家族としてのかかわり方。さらには社会の矛盾にいたるまで、母の介護を通し多くを学びました。
（母ちゃんは、お師匠さんだぁ。
でぎわりぃ弟子だっぺに、
娘に呼んでくっち、
ずぅっと身近においでくっちゃんだなぁ）
と、素直にありがたく、そう思えたものでした。
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ドッペルゲンガー
Doppelganger
１年で２０キロやせてしまうと、久しぶりに会う方が驚愕なさいます。前述の心霊治療家によれば、脳動脈瘤ができ始めたのも、この頃だそう。感情失禁といって、わけもなく涙が流れ落ちるので、道を歩いている時も、就職面接のあいだも、マッサージ院で治療中も、自分で泣き止むことができません。１５年の結婚生活。うつ病を患い、前夫と離婚したのは、４０代初め。心身を病んだだけではなく、たましいも問題を抱えたのでしょう。わたしのドッペルゲンガーが目撃されるようになりました。
「パチンコしでだら、あんた、向ごうであいさつしだじゃん。声かけよって探したらいねぇし。あの店、来でだっぺ？」
運転代行で呼ばれたスナックのママさんは、きりっとした美人さん。
「ほら、あのデパートに、いたよね。ちょっと向こうにいてさ。そっとあいさつしてきたから、話しかけようと思ったら、もういなかった。その日、来てたよね？」
こちらは、ダンデイーなマスター。
いえいえ。その日その時間は、どちらも介護の仕事中。
「事務所の外を、左から玄関のほうに歩いでだのが窓から見えで、入って来っかってタイミングで、まだすぐ、左から玄関方面に歩いできで！」
これは、同僚の証言です。
「これ、ちがぁべ！って思ったばい！」
はい、この時も、出先で通院介助中。
怪現象は数年続きましたが、最近は落ち着いています。とはいえ、完治したかどうか不明ですので、うっかりドッペルゲンガーが出現したら、驚かせて申し訳ありません。
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第一の怪異
The first mystery
その空き家は、とある城下町の処刑場跡地にありました。ある人Ａ氏が、そこを借りたいから見てほしいと言いだします。
「そご、なにやっても
うまぐいがね 土地だっぺ？
なんで そだどご借りんだ。
ほだ 無茶言うでね。
やめなんしょ、やめなんしょ」
止めても、Ａ氏は聞き入れません。
とうとう、霊現象が見えるＢ女史、同じくＣ青年、何も見えないわたし、そして言い出しっぺのＡ氏で、家を見に行くことになりました。
４人は１台の車に乗り込みます。その晩は、ひどい大雨でした。わたしたちは傘を差し、懐中電灯をつけ、裏に回って、掃き出し窓から、暗い室内を覗き込みます。
「いる・・・」
「・・・いるね」
そこに、ふたつの霊集団がおりました。
「なにいんだ？」
「首がたくさん。
ころがったり、浮いたり・・・
ほかに、『おれがいちばん強い！』
こう わめく夜盗のかしらと、
『そうだそうだ！
かしらがいちばん強い！』
はやし立てる 手下たち」
見たものを実況説明するＣ青年。突然、Ｂ女史が、がくっと失神してしまいます。
「あらら、なんだべ！ Ｂさん！
ちっと！ Ｂさんが！」
「よこせ！ おい、撤収！」
Ａ氏がＢ女史をかかえ、４人はずぶぬれのまま、車に乗り込みます。豪雨の闇の中、Ａ氏の家まで、どうにか逃げ帰りました。家に入り、ほっとして、かわいたタオルでぬれた服をぬぐっていると、なんということでしょう。
第二の怪異が始まったのです。
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第二の怪異
The second mystery
『このふたりには、わしらが見える！』
そのことに気づいた ふたつの霊集団が、わたしたちを追って、Ｃ青年に憑依しようと襲いかかったのです。
『よこせ・・・からだをよこせ・・
おれがいちばん強い・・
まだまだ暴れてやる・・・』
「外で 叫んでいい？
でも近所に 聞こえちゃうかな」
武道家でもあるＣ青年は、悪霊を祓うため、今すぐ気合を発したいと、こう訴えます。それを聞きつけたＡ氏が、Ｃ青年の背中に、指で大きく、なにかを書きつけます。すると、どうでしょう。夜盗のかしらと手下たちによる、ひと
つめの霊集団が去ったのです。
一方、Ｂ女史と、家の中に戻ったＣ青年に、深刻な怪異が・・・。
「首が・・・盗られる・・・」
のどもとをおさえ、呻きだし、やがて、ぐったりする、ふたり。
「なぁ、なじょすんだ、これ！」
なにが起こっているのかまったくわからないまま、Ａ氏もわたしも、おろおろするばかり。ところが。
阿鼻叫喚ののち、霊集団は、ふいに去っていったではありませんか。
おさないわが子も、年老いた両親も、美しい妻も、みな捕らえられた。家長である若武者は捕縛されたまま、ただ見つめることしかゆるされない。まだおさない子どもが引き出され、
刃こぼれが生じたなまくら刀で、ほそい首を叩き落される。
「やめろ！やめてくれ！・・・
どうしてこのような・・・
平和に、おだやかに
暮らしていたのに・・・
愛しているのだ・・・」
首の霊集団によって、身体の自由を奪われ、脱力中に見せられていた まぼろしを、Ｃ青年が語ります。
それは、敗戦武家一族が受けた、残酷な処刑でした。
「あれは・・・見たくなかった」
肩を落とし、苦悩する、Ｃ青年。
ところが。みんながホッとしたとたん、さらに第三の怪異がおこったのです。
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第三の怪異
The third mystery
Ｂ：「ねえ、あれ[貴森1] 見える？ 怖いね」
Ｃ：「あー・・うん・・・これは怖い」
わたし：「なに？」
Ｂ：「・・・言うなって」
Ｃ：「うん、話すなって言ってる。
怖がらせるなって」
わたし：「ふーん・・・つまり、
怖がんねで いいよって、
そゆこと だっぺ？」
二人によれば、恐ろしげな鬼子母神が、床から顔を出して、わたしを見つめているそう。
第一の怪異に続いて、まさかの第二の怪異。生まれてはじめての、本格的な恐怖体験の直後です。
鬼子母神といえばご神霊です。
ええ。疲れ切っていたとしても、この態度はダメでしょう。
わたし：「えー・・・したっけ、
なんで鬼子母神？
なんでわだし見でんの？」
きょとんとするうち、時間も時間なので、一同解散となりました。
今思えば、ふたつの凶悪な霊集団があっけなく去ったのは、まさに鬼子母神の出現によるものでしょう。あのままでは霊障を受け、さらに憑依され、もしかしたらほんとうに、首が盗られていたのかもしれません。
それにしても鬼子母神は、どんな理由で、わたしたちを助けてくださったのでしょう。何年もなぞのままでしたが、この本を書いていて感じたことがあります。生まれたとき、わたしは仮死出生でした。もしかするとその時すでに、安産の神である鬼子母神がわたしを護り、助けてくださったのでしょう。今となっては確認できませんが、おそらく産院の信仰対象で、どなたかが、わたしのために祈ってくださった。そのご縁があったために、あの日、生死がかかった場面で駆けつけ、助けてくださったのではないでしょうか。
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ご縁ある神々
When we are blessed by the gods
数年後、引っ越した土地でお世話になった、あるご老人に、興味深いお話を持ちかけられます。
「神様を下ろしてあげようか」
わたしの反応を見ながら、
「３万」とおっしゃる。
わたし：「えぇ・・・相場は３０万円ですよねぇ」 （いえ、はったりです）
ご老人：「なんだ、知ってるのか」
と笑っていらっしゃる。
そのころの３万円は、日夜働くわたしには大金で、ふところがいたかったのですが、これもご縁と、お願いすることに。そのときわたしに降りてきたのが、豊川稲荷です。
「いやぁ、これは驚いたぁ。普通は、氏神様が下りてくるのだよ。こんなことは、はじめてだ。どうしたことかな？」
ご老人にわからないのに、わたしにわかるはずもありません。
翌年、３１１大震災が発生します。実はこの１週間前に、わたしは福島を離れていました。数か月たち、街の地図を眺めて気づき、驚いたのですが、当時はまったく意図せず、豊川稲荷の近隣に越していたのです。
ところで、わたしは手作りのマペットをどこへでも連れあるき、娘のようにかわいがっています。
ある神社で、修験者の方が、夫にご縁のある龍神様を、この子にいれてくださいました。
「え、汚れたお顔を取り替えたり、衣装をかえたりしても いいですか？ 怒らせませんか？ だっこして連れてまわしても、だいょうぶですか？」
こう、びっくりして確認すると、
「ああ、それはよろこぶよ」 。
この龍神様、よろこんでいらっしゃるとき、うれしいときは、マペットがいつもよりとても軽く、ふんわりと感じられるのです。違いがはっきりわかることがおもしろく、不思議なことです。
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はじらう貴婦人 The lady
After my mother passed away, it was as if a
switch had been flipped and I was suddenly able to play the keyboard. That
said, it was only to the extent that I could (sound like some kind of song). At
the time, I had a recurring dream of playing the piano freely. There was a
large, sunny room with a row of oddly shaped pianos, and I was playing one of
them to create a beautiful melody. As if possessed, I looked for an opportunity
to actually play.
At the H City Cultural Center, there was an
event where they rented out a concert piano for an hour, and I immediately
played for two hours. My left hand was a challenge at that time. When I started
playing the piano on stage, I suddenly became able to play freely. I had been
playing the keyboard for one or two years.
"Are you the one who plays in
concerts?"
I remember being very surprised when a staff
member from the cultural center asked me as I was leaving.
(We're friends now, aren't we? We're friends
now, aren't we?)
After finishing the performance with
gratitude, I imagined in my mind the figure of a lady looking down and timidly
saying,
"I'm nothing more than a piano."
She is now an irreplaceable teacher.
In a hall, a professional performer pours all
of his energy into the piano. On that day, she generously offered all of her
energy to the piano. I couldn't help but feel that way. I was also surprised
when a vocal teacher from Kyoto later agreed with my thoughts and nodded
deeply, saying, "Yes! I understand! I felt the same way with the piano at
home!"
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あとがき Who inherits what?
お風呂に入って体を清める。家の中を掃除して清潔を保つ。おなじように、祓い清めによって、霊的な環境を整えることはたいせつです。地域やご家庭によって、やりかたはさまざま。
「山に人格があるの？」
ええ。木々にも、風にも、楽器にも、意思があり、感情があり、また人格があります。会話が可能な場合も。
「ピアノが弾けたら いいなあ」
そんなあなた。ピアノにむかって、
「ともだちだよね」
こう、つぶやいてみませんか？ 師弟関係が結ばれたら、ぜひ、わたしに教えてください。
「魂などない。死んだら終わりだ」
いえいえ。複数の証言があったドッペルゲンガー現象は、それこそ霊魂の存在証明ではありませんか。
怪異は、異次元からのコミュニケーション。
「怖いものに、不用意に
近づいてはいけない！」
「見えていることを、やつらに
悟られてはいけない！」
ええ、もちろんです。でも、向こうからやってくるかもしれませんよ。なんせ、やづめら、百鬼夜行だもんなぁ・・・。
はじめにIntroduction
I am a budding paper mache artist.
When I was in high school, I met a paper mache
artist from Nishida-cho, Koriyama City, and 50 years later, I have finally been
able to start my own work. This is the story of my strange and mysterious
experience.
In the past, we would hear about these things
from the elderly, but nowadays we encounter scary and strange things through
manga and games. In fact, the content and ways of dealing with them seem to
differ depending on the region and the family. I would be very happy if you
could discuss scary and strange things at home, school, or work, and revive
some of the precious teachings that have been lost in your community.
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怪異とは Strange experiences
I have a strange and scary experience that
took me more than ten years to prove. The photo was taken when I was in my
early 40s. Where my head should be, there was a night view of Tokyo. It was a
so-called ghost photo. It was taken with a digital camera, so we all looked at
it and were shocked.
"It's said that when a spirit passes by,
it becomes a ghost photo," I tried to cover up my shock, but I deleted the
photo without saving it. It is said that this kind of photo is a warning from
ancestors to "be careful of illness and injury." A friend who can see
the mysterious had also warned me at the time to "be careful of mental
illness."
This is my cerebral aneurysm, discovered by a
specialist. This was more than ten years after the spirit photography.
There's actually more to this story.
A psychic healer told me,
"Five or six are starting to form."
The following year, an examination confirmed
that the shape of my cerebral aneurysm had changed to a bumpy one, and there
were now six.
Psychic photography, a friend who could see
miracles. And a psychic healer. These mysterious and scary experiences were
later medically verified by a specialist, making them very valuable real-life
experiences.
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笑う山 The mountain laughed
If we head towards N from H city, we will come
to a town called M. While I was looking up H Jinjya on the Internet, I discovered N Jinjya. I definitely want to
visit this Jinjya. The town was holding a festival at K Jinjya. I have a
connection to this Jinjya as well. Looking up, I saw a Jinjya for Inari on the
slope.
"You're going to N Jinjya, right? I'll
take you there. This way, this way!"
Although it gave me a childlike impression,
its true identity was unclear. It wasn't something I could see with my eyes,
but something that came to me as an image in my mind.
(Guidance...even looking at the map,
N Jinjya is further to the left)
The energetic guide walks up the slope from
the hall to the right.
(I wonder...but we're not so far into the
mountains that we'll get lost, and we can go back if we're wrong. Well, let's
go.)
The narrow road is a steep dirt slope that
only locals know about.
(...maybe this isn't a public road?)
Looking back, I've already climbed quite a
steep slope.
(Sigh...going down is so hard.)
I look up and there is a shrine. Looking more
closely, it's the N Jinjya I've been looking for. I thank the proud guide and
immediately go to pray.
"I've
come here today to perform a dance."
When I
said that, a certain being at N Jinjya
replied, "It's not here." Here again, it's not real, and everything I
say is just an image in my mind. "Over there."
In the
indicated direction, I saw the ruins of T Castle.
(...So
you want me to get off this mountain and climb that mountain again?...Wow.)
The
baggage on my back suddenly became heavier.
"I'll
take you."
The
guide from earlier looked happy.
"I
know the way, it's fine. But thank you."
I went
around the public road, got into town, and climbed the mountain to the ruins of
T Castle. Apparently, this is actually privately owned land.
Panting,
I stood at the castle ruins. I set up my video camera and, hoping that no one
would come, I performed my original chant and dance to the mountain in the
distance.
(You
and I are friends now!
We're
friends now, aren't we?)
After
the dedication, the mountains were filled with laughter.
(What?
Is it really that funny?)
Humans
who recognize the personality of mountains and naturally seek to form
friendships with them are still alive in this world today. For these people,
who have been watching the changes in people and society since ancient times,
this must have been so hilarious and entertaining that it made them laugh until
they were in stitches.
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正夢 Until the dream comes true
"You
should open a restaurant from now on," my dear old father said to me in an
old, deserted drive-in. It was about 10 years after he passed away. At the
time, I had no plans to work in the food and beverage industry. I soon forgot
about that dream.
Five or
six years later, my husband had difficulty finding a job after recuperating at
home. (I wish we could work together as a couple.) While I was browsing the
internet, I found an ad for a couple to be live-in caretakers. The job duties
included managing the dormitory entrance and exit, receiving mail and
deliveries, and providing breakfast and dinner.
While
recuperating at home, my husband prepared dinner every day. His late father was
a chef, and he doesn't seem to have any aversion to cooking.
"Wouldn't
this be a good idea?"
I tried
to say this to him with a pounding heart.
"Can
I do it?"
My
husband seemed very anxious because he had no experience living in a dormitory
or cooking large quantities. But he specializes in management, clerical work,
and accounting.
"We
can do it! Well, I'll apply right away!"
We
somehow made it through the hectic process of my wife's aggressive couple
interview and the extremely tough practical exam, and were happily hired.
"I'll
help you," my late father told me in a dream. My husband, who I hadn't
even met yet at the time and was before he remarried, is similar to my late
father in both his specialty and personality, and it makes me feel strangely
like my father is really helping me.
Now, we
have both obtained our chef's licenses, and I am very fulfilled, thanks to him.
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塩と酒・塩水と榊
Salt and Sake,
Salt Water and Sakaki
After my father passed away, my 81-year-old
mother was taken in by my eldest son in Tokyo. After that, I heard from an
acquaintance that my elderly mother had entered a certain facility. At the
time, she was in need of assistance, so she shouldn't have been able to enter a
facility.
"What do you mean, admitted?! Has her
level of care increased that much?! My mother wasn't in such a bad
condition!"
Furious, I searched everywhere I could.
Finally, I was reunited with my mother, who had become very emaciated, at a
group home in Ibaraki Prefecture.
I finally took my mother into my home, but
what happened? She was experiencing severe symptoms such as delusions and
auditory hallucinations that she hadn't exhibited before she moved to Tokyo. My
mother's dementia had definitely worsened.
"My 80-year-old sister came (alone) at 2
a.m. from a town 60 kilometers away and repeatedly pleaded with me to open the
door and let her in. My mother was late coming to the front door, so she stayed
in the house behind the house and left without seeing me," my mother told
me. I work as a caregiver during the day and a designated driver at night, so I
wake up when I hear my mother opening the front door, and I rush over from my
bedroom on the second floor. "Enough! Let me sleep!" This continued
for so long that I reached my limit. (Oh, yeah, yeah. I've decided that this is
a spiritual phenomenon.) I was fed up. While chanting "HARAITAMAE
KIYOMETAMAE," I purified the inside of the house with salt water and
sakaki branches, and sprinkled sake and salt on the grounds. My mother's
symptoms soon subsided.
It was also strange that when we purified the
stairs, I heard a little girl's voice say "Thank you" in my heart.
After this, I moved to three different places
with my mother, and each time I set up a barrier around the premises
beforehand. Each time, I felt the miraculous effect.
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城下の桜
Cherry blossoms under the
castle
In the summer when she was 83 years old, my
mother suddenly became paralyzed on one side of her body. When I went to wake
her up in the bedroom in the morning, she had slurred speech and was physically
disabled. She was conscious and could talk. However, even if I wanted to take
her to the hospital, most hospitals were closed that day because it was Obon in
Japan.
"Let's visit the grave again some other
time," my mother said, slurring her words.
(Because she is old, she may not be able to go
again next time. I want to stop by my parents' house and my main family and see
everyone.)
I took my mother on a 100-kilometer day trip.
I assisted her completely, not only in getting in and out of the car, but also
in using the toilet. All of my relatives were shocked at my mother's condition,
as she could not sit for more than five minutes even if she was leaning on it.
When I got home, she said, "OHOIEIIHIAI
(I want to go to the toilet)." I lived with my mother. I have a day and
night job.
"Mom, when I'm not home, you can't go to
the toilet by yourself, so you can defecate in your diaper."
...This was a cruel request from my mother.
"OHOIEIIHIA (I really want to use the
toilet)."
I suddenly remembered that there was an unused
wheelchair that had been bought when I was taking care of my father. I quietly
taught my mother how to use the wheelchair, who stubbornly insisted.
"Can you do it?"
"I can now go to the toilet by
myself."
My mother went to the toilet by herself from
the first day she collapsed. Finally, without medical rehabilitation, she
recovered enough to walk with a cane in a month. This completely amazed her
doctor and all the care staff involved.
In her later years, with both hands supported,
my mother walked up to Aizu Tsuruga Castle by herself. At the time, the roof
tiles were being replaced and the castle tower was surrounded by scaffolding.
"The view is beautiful."
My mother was born with weak eyesight and
developed cataracts as she grew older. She could not see, but she may have
enjoyed the cherry blossoms under the castle with her mind's eye.
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「また、あなたがいい」
A message from my late
mother
90 years old. It was a week after my mother
collapsed and was hospitalized. She regained consciousness and was surprised to
hear that she was in the hospital.
"HIOHO HIOHO! (Don't worry. Go to
work)"
She encouraged me with these words. And these
were her last words. Finally, that day came.
"You are the best mother I have ever
had."
Her heart had stopped beating, and the
electrocardiogram, which had stopped working, jumped up once as if in response
to her words.
(Ah, she must have heard me after all.)
So I said,
"Even if I'm reborn again, I want to be
your child again."
The electrocardiogram no longer reacted.
After the funeral, when I returned to work,
"I want you again! You again!"
This was what the patient I was helping out
with that day kept saying. While we were waiting to be seen and while we were
waiting to pay, she kept repeating the same thing. Before I knew it, 30 minutes
had passed.
(Oh no,
I guess my mother was making her express her
feelings.
Yes.
That's what a mother would do.)
My cheeks loosen.
(I see...she replied.
Next time, we'll be born with a mother and
child again...
but next time,
it'd be better if the mother and child were
more normal.)
My mother was in her 50s and suffered from
early-onset Alzheimer's dementia. This was when this disease was not yet known.
I was at the mercy of my mother's symptoms, and even though I loved her, I also
hated her. I'm a daughter with mixed feelings. About medicine, about the
disease, how to interact with her as a family, and even the contradictions of
society, I learned a lot through caring for my mother.
(My mother is my teacher.
I was probably a poor student,
but you called me to become your daughter,
and kept me close to you forever.)
I was so grateful, and I thought to myself.
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ドッペルゲンガー
Doppelganger
When I lose 20 kg in a year, people who meet
me for the first time in a long time are surprised. According to the spiritual
healer mentioned above, it was around this time that I started to develop a
cerebral aneurysm. I have emotional incontinence, and tears flow for no reason,
so I can't stop crying when I'm walking down the street, during a job
interview, or while receiving treatment at a massage parlor. I was married for
15 years. I was in my early 40s when I suffered from depression and divorced my
ex-husband. Not only did I suffer from physical and mental illness, but I also
had problems in my soul. People began to see my doppelganger.
"When I was playing pachinko, you greeted
me from a little way over, right? I looked around to call out to you, but you
were gone. You definitely came to that pachinko parlor, weren't you?"
This is what the hostess of a bar who was
called to drive me was saying. She is a sharp and beautiful woman.
"You know, you were at that department
store, right? You were a little way over there. You said hello to me, so I went
to talk to you, but you were gone. You were at the department store that day,
weren't you?"
This was what a dandy owner of another store
told me.
No, no. That day, that time, I was working as
a caregiver.
"I saw you walking from the window
outside the office, coming from the left toward the entrance, and just as you
were entering the office, you were walking from the left toward the entrance
again!"
This is what a colleague said.
"I thought, this is not human!"
Yes, at that time, I was out and about,
helping with a medical appointment.
The strange phenomenon continued for several
years, but it has calmed down recently. However, I'm not sure if I'm completely
cured, so I apologize for scaring you if my doppelganger appears.
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第一の怪異
The first mystery
The vacant house was located on the former
site of an execution ground in a castle town. A certain Mr. A wanted to rent
the house, so he asked his psychic friends to have a spiritual vision of the
house.
"That's the kind of land where nothing
works, right?
Are you really going to rent a house on a
ridge?
That's crazy.
Don't do it, don't do it."
No matter how much I tried to stop him, Mr. A
wouldn't listen.
Finally, four of us - Ms. B, who can see
psychic phenomena, young man C, who is also psychic, myself, who can't see
spirits, and Mr. A, who had suggested it - decided to go and see the house in
question.
The four of us got into a car. It was raining
heavily that night. We put up umbrellas, turned on flashlights, went around to
the back of the house, and peered into the dark interior through the bay
window.
"There are spirits..."
"There are spirits..."
There were two groups of spirits there.
"What do you see?"
"Lots of heads.
Rolling, floating...
Also, the head of a thief yelling, 'I'm the
strongest!'
And his henchmen cheering, 'That's right!
He's the strongest!'
Young man C gives a running description of
what he saw. Suddenly, Ms. B faints.
"Oh no! What should we do? Mr. B!
Hey! Mr. B!"
"Give it to me! Hey, let's move
out!"
Mr. A picks up Ms. B, and the four of them get
in the car, soaked. In the darkness of the torrential rain, we somehow manage
to escape back to Mr. A's house. We enter the house, relieved, and wipe our wet
clothes with a dry towel, when, lo and behold, the second strange phenomenon
begins.
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第二の怪異
The second mystery
"These two can see us!"
Two groups of spirits noticed this and
followed us. They attacked the spiritually sensitive young man C, trying to
possess him.
"Give it to me... give me your body...
I'm the strongest... I'm going to go on a rampage..."
"Can I shout outside?
But I'm afraid the neighbors will hear."
Young man C, who is also a martial artist,
said that he wanted to get the energy he needed right away to exorcise the evil
spirits. Hearing this, Mr. A wrote something large on Young man C's back with
his finger. And guess what? The first group of spirits, made up of the thief
and his minions, had left.
Meanwhile, serious strange happenings had
begun for Ms. B and Young man C, who had returned to the house first.
"My head... has been stolen..."
They hold their throats and start groaning,
before collapsing.
"Hey, what's this!"
Not understanding what was going on, Mr. A and
I were completely confused. However, after a horrible scream, the group of
spirits suddenly left.
"My infant child, my aged parents, and my
beautiful wife were all captured. The young warrior, who was the head of the
family, was left tied up and could only watch. The infant child was taken out
and his thin neck was chopped off with a blunt sword that had a nicked blade.
"Stop! Stop!... Why did this happen... We
were living peacefully and calmly... I love you..."
C, the young man, recounts the vision he was
shown while he was limp and deprived of physical freedom by the group of
spirits of the heads.
It was a cruel execution scene of a defeated
samurai family.
"That was heartbreaking... I didn't want
to see such a sad scene."
Young C slumped his shoulders in anguish.
However, just as everyone relaxed, a third
strange phenomenon occurred.
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第三の怪異
The third mystery
Ms. B: "Hey, can you see that? It's
scary."
Young Man C: "Uh...yeah...this is
scary."
Me: "What?"
Ms. B: "...don't say anything."
Young Man C: "Yeah, I'm telling you not
to talk. Don't scare me."
Me: "I see...so you're saying I don't
need to be scared, right?"
According to the two of them, the terrifying
Kishimojin appeared from the floor and was staring at me.
Following the first strange phenomenon, the
second one came unexpectedly. This was right after my first truly terrifying
experience in my life.
Kishimojin is a powerful spirit.
Yes. No matter how exhausted I was, this
attitude of mine was no good.
Me: "Eh...but why is Kishimojin here?
Why is she looking at me?"
I was confused and didn't understand anything.
It was getting late, so the four of us dispersed.
Looking back, it must have been precisely
because of the appearance of Kishimojin that the two evil groups of spirits
left so abruptly. If things had continued as they were, we would have been
disturbed by the spirits, and perhaps even possessed, and perhaps the four
heads would have really been stolen.
But what was the reason that Kishimojin helped
us? This remained a mystery for many years, but as I was writing this book, I
had a feeling. When I was born, I was in a state of suspended animation.
Perhaps even then, Kishimojin, the goddess of safe childbirth, had protected
and helped me. I can't confirm this now, but I think someone who was an object
of worship at the maternity hospital had prayed for me. Perhaps it was because
of this connection that on the day we were attacked by the vengeful spirits,
when our lives were at stake, Kishimojin rushed to our aid and saved the four
of us.
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ご縁ある神々
When we are blessed by the gods
A few years later, there was an old man who
had looked after me in the area where I had moved. He approached me with an
interesting story.
"Shall I summon a god to you?"
Seeing my reaction,
he said,
"30,000 yen."
Me: "Huh... the going rate is 300,000 yen
(no, I'm just bluffing)."
The old man: "What? You know?"
He laughed.
At that time, 30,000 yen was a lot of money
for me, who worked day and night, and I was in a tight spot, but I decided to
ask for help, thinking it was fate.
Then, Toyokawa Inari descended upon me.
The old man: "Wow, this is amazing.
Usually, the local deity descends. This is the first time I've seen something
like this. What's going on?"
If the old man didn't know, there was no way I
could understand it either.
The following year, the Great East Japan
Earthquake occurred. In fact, I had left Fukushima a week before. A few months
later, I was surprised to notice it while looking at a city map. At the time, I
had moved to the neighborhood of Toyokawa Inari without even thinking about it.
By the way, I take my handmade Muppet with me
wherever I go, and I love it like a daughter.
At one shrine, a mountain ascetic placed a
dragon god, who is related to my husband, inside the muppet.
"Oh, is it okay if I change the dirty
face or change the clothes? Will it upset him? Is it okay if I pick up the
muppet and carry it around?"
I was surprised and asked the mountain
ascetic, and he replied,
"Yes, that makes him happy."
When the dragon god is happy, when he is
happy, the muppet feels much lighter and softer than usual to me. It's
interesting and mysterious that I can clearly see the difference.
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はじらう貴婦人 The lady
After my mother passed away, it was as if a
switch had been flipped and I was suddenly able to play the keyboard. That
said, it was only to the extent that I could (sound like some kind of song). At
the time, I had a recurring dream of playing the piano freely. There was a
large, sunny room with a row of oddly shaped pianos, and I was playing one of
them to create a beautiful melody. As if possessed, I looked for an opportunity
to actually play.
At the H City Cultural Center, there was an
event where they rented out a concert piano for an hour, and I immediately
played for two hours. My left hand was a challenge at that time. When I started
playing the piano on stage, I suddenly became able to play freely. I had been
playing the keyboard for one or two years.
"Are you the one who plays in
concerts?"
I remember being very surprised when a staff
member from the cultural center asked me as I was leaving.
(We're friends now, aren't we? We're friends
now, aren't we?)
After finishing the performance with
gratitude, I imagined in my mind the figure of a lady looking down and timidly
saying,
"I'm nothing more than a piano."
She is now an irreplaceable teacher.
In a hall, a professional performer pours all
of his energy into the piano. On that day, she generously offered all of her
energy to the piano. I couldn't help but feel that way. I was also surprised
when a vocal teacher from Kyoto later agreed with my thoughts and nodded
deeply, saying, "Yes! I understand! I felt the same way with the piano at
home!"
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あとがき Who inherits what?
Taking a bath to purify the body. Cleaning the
house and keeping it clean. In the same way, it is important to prepare a
spiritual environment through purification. However, the way of doing this
varies depending on the region and the household.
"Do mountains have personalities?"
Yes. Trees, wind, and musical instruments all
have wills, feelings, and personalities. In some cases, they can even converse
with you.
"I wish I could play the piano."
If that sounds like you, why not try
whispering to the piano,
"We're friends, aren't we?"
If you ever find yourself in a master-disciple
relationship, please let me know.
"There is no soul. Once you die, that's
the end."
No, no. The doppelganger phenomenon, which has
been testified to by multiple people, is proof of the existence of the soul.
Strange phenomena are communication from
another dimension.
"Don't approach scary things
carelessly!"
"Don't let them know that you can see
them!"
Of course. But they might come from the other
side. After all, they are HYAKKI-YAKOU.
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